Sean pushed away the man leaning on his body, staring at the boundless darkness in a daze with wide-opened eyes. He even tried to slow down his breath, waiting for the wearing off of the suffocating heartache.

They had agreed to be together for ever. They met the best one in the prime of their life. Sean smiled with stupefaction. He remembered a lot of trivial things firmy, which made up happiness.

William was cool and pretentious when facing people at his scooltime, which was quite childish. When he was young, he sometimes exclaimed with elation hiding in the meadow: "Sean, Sean, look at it! Lizard!", he brought multifarious delicious food for Sean every day, he fighted with others for Sean usually, and he bluffed those girls who had a crush on Sean always. Later he entered the society and began to start his own business, when he had always been tripped up and suffered so many setbacks. He had to drink with the fat cats even if he couldn't drink anymore. After he got drunk, he cuddled Sean and cried that he didn't give him a good life.

"You've said It was enough to own me in your whole life. Isn't is a deal?" Sean said in his heart and could not stand it anymore, bursting out crying like a child with the hand back covering on his eyes. Sean really missed the gorgeous and delicate pear blossom in their senior high school. He picked up a small pocket of flowers everyday after school before and after the blooming period, holding a small handful of blossom and blowing them toward William's face and head. One day in the hodiday, William pressed Sean against the pear tree and kissed him lingeringly for a long time with strong juvenile love in the empty school, which was the most romantic thing they had done ever.

But what could that mean? The intense and pure love had worn off in the wear and tear of time. It had faded away in the lust for feasting and revelry. He had nothing to comfort himself again.

"I still have strength, so I won't stop loving you until I have no strength again. You only have yourself in the future. Don't be so wayward, or you can't retain those around you." Sean said in his heart. He got up difficultly, tucking William in gently. The dimple which should be as tender and sweet as nectar had been soaked by bitter tears. He turned back, biting his fingers to suppress his sobs.

It broke late in winter. Sean looked at the day becomeing brighter and brighter bit by bit. The cold light infiltrated through the diaphanous gauze curtain, terribly cold. It was a severe winter this year. If he could build a snowman with William, it would thaw very slowly and his imprints would stay longer in William's winter.

Sean got up and staggered to take a shower. The thin body was covered with dense marks of lust all over, seeming a little dirty and a little pathetic.

Sean knew he was really spineless. He had no strength to make a scene. Loving William had become his habit, ao he could only endure it. Lying prone on the cold white marble bath edge, he led out the fluid William left in his body with his fingers, frowning more and more tightly. He must stop it.

Sean took medicine and then went to prepare breakfast. William drank too much last night, so he prepared millet porridge to nourish his stomach. The porridge had been cooked which was stewed in the pot. Sean sat on the sofa, reading a novel intently.

It was not early when William got up, who then acted cute beside Sean with disheveled hair. He was much stronger than Sean, curving his arm to hold Sean in his arms totally.

"I'm going on a business trip tomorrow and won't be back for half a month."

Sean's hand which was turning a page paused: "I know." If he was not home, it would be more convenient to go to the hospital.

"You'll go alone?" Sean tore himself away from William's arms to the kitchen for porridge.

William paused for a while: "With a cadre and assistant."

Sean said ok and didn't care too much about it, handing a bowl with porridge to William: "Don't be too harsh on Assistant Song. He is too busy but you still take him on a business trip."

William took a spoon to eat the porridge, not thinking much: "Not Song. It's the new assistant, graduated from the academy of fine arts. I'll take him to meet the French designer."

Sean smiled: "Do I know him?"

"Of course not. You must not know the newcomers to the company, let alone Elton who just graduated......" William suddenly shut his mouth and concentrated on eating.

Sean felt cold in his heart. The boy must be diplomatic as he could attain such a high position under William when he just graduated from school.