"We are done" Milson said as he removed my hands from around his waist.He invited me to talk to him and I had been so happy to see him after a week of not seeing him.I had ran happily and fallen into his hands but he had pushed me away with these cruel words.

I thought he was joking buh the look in his eyes made it clear ,the words were written all over his face and I felt my eyes sting with tears.

"We are done" he said again, making it clear enough for me to register in my messy head.He turned his back to walk away and that's when I realized what was happening, Milson was walking away ,he was serious this wasn't a joke .

'Where did I go wrong?' I wondered as I said.

"Am sorry" I apologized, not really knowing why I was apologizing though I felt like I had too.I didn't even know what my fault was but I knew,deep down this was my only way out .

I loved Milson he had approached me on my 13th bd and asked me out, he had been 15 then and the most popular guy in school so there was no way I was gonna say no.

I had heard a lot about him but I never quite got the opportunity to talk to him but he did.

Milson turned and looked at me then smirked "huh, for what?" he asked "For everything, for making you want to break up with me...please don't I'll be good...I promise" I said, sounding 100%like the naive little girl I was.

I felt weak and broken and I wasn't ready to bear the pain of this heart break.

"You didn't do anything wrong,"he said sounding like the guy I had fallen in love with," am just tired of you,you're boring ,I me..."

"I'll change" I said interrupting him, I couldn't bare to listen to his tone filled with disgust as he said the other part of his words."I'll do anything, I...I...I..." I added this time unable to hold hide the anxiousness in my voice.

"That's it Drey, you're naive and I hate naive and fat girls, you've gained a lot of weight recently there's no way I can date a fatty" he said looking disgustedly at me.

"I like my girls slim and beautiful, not fat and ugly like you" he said, "Bu...but you said you loved me" I said clinching my fists to avoid touching him because right now I jhs wanted to be held in his arms.

"I did?" he asked sheepishly, "Oh...I lied" he said

"But...i, we can try to make it work,I'll lose weight" I said."Not anymore,we are done and besides I jhs wanted to sleep with you because you were popular then buh you didn't even let me touch you ,so your useless" he said .

Truth was I was popular but that was because of ma friend Kendal who wanted to be a fashion designer, she kept designing and we always went shopping on weekends ,always filling our closets with the latest designs and labels and always making sure I maintained my size but when her family moved away 5 months ago I became a loser and also gained a lot of weight which led to Milson's harsh words.

I had also lost my position to Chloe who was currently the bitch Milson was leaving me for.I had seen them making out several times buh there was no way I was gonna let go of Milson.Hewas caring and totally funny,yet others said he was jhs masking himself in front of me .I always thought they were jhs jealous because I was dating someone from a high grade.Even some girls from his grade tried to warn me but I jhs laughed it off yet deep down I knew they were right.

I collapsed on my knees as I hurried my face in my palms and wailed.

He scoffed then said " Look at you...there's nothing good about you,the only thing I wanted from you,you wouldn't even let me always telling me that we were still underage and you claim you love mum" he ridiculed then turned around and left.

I wept even harder, I knew I'd never love any one else as much as I had loved Milson.He was my first love and I didn't think I'd ever forget him.I looked at his back as he walked and I almost tried to stop him and beg him to do whatever he wanted with me. And then what? I wondered. I knew if I was jhs going to build a relationship based on sex I would never feel loved and I'd gain nothing from that.

I regretted the past buh I was even more angrier at the thought of my stupidity, how would I regret a right decision jhs because of love. I had always known that I wasn't gonna spend the rest of life with him buh then I had avoided all thoughts and made myself believe that we would.

I had watched jhs enough dramas and I had seen people suffer from heat breaks and I thought to myself that this probably was my turn to be heart broken.

Yah no matter how careful you are everyone will have to go through the pain of a heart break some day and this somehow triggered the bitch I became a few years from now because I believed that all men were the same and they didn't deserve to beloved because to them we , girls we're just objects that they got there pleasure fr.And since pleasure could be found even in the unexpected of all place, women were literally items for use buh not for keeps and this meant they could be disposed off anytime.

I didn't expect that I would also ever fall in love with a man again so I found myself in and out of relationships all the time which was something I got used too and if I found outfthat you loved me ,I'd break up with you jhs to date your friends.This was the path I choose for myself since that rain and cold night that my sorrows began.

The heart though works on its own accord and thus I didn't expect to fall so deeply in love with another guy to the extent of wanting to stop my bitchy ways but alas! the guy was also a man whore who was well known for his one night stands and I wondered whether he had also gone through the same cruel path as me.

He was a god, he's looks, voice,body everything was jhs perfect and one couldn't help buh be drawn into his turquoise eyes.

He was the devil that deprived me of my rights to hurt men and almost diverted me from wanting to take my revenge but when the devil meets a she-devil they can't help but make a perfect pair of demons as they try to prove who is best.

That's what him and me were and in the long run we both hurt each other till we both scored our goals.