That crazy first night was boastfully celebrated by Gu Chencha for two months. But once he slowly discovered the truth, those ignorant bragging only made him appear as a pitiful clown.

He merely tossed a counterfeit item to console the owner of the collection, without cherishing it as one would an original work. The other party, in order to vent their anger, treated him as if he were a money-hungry crook, and he even thought that the other person was playing a Huangpu life-or-death love game with him.

When Grandpa Yǎ held him within his arms, and stood on the water to support the embankment, both of them were completely soaked.

Gu Chencha believed that enduring the pain meant conquering the beast. Therefore, even though the lower part of her body was immersed in icy cold water, causing a piercing sensation, she still clung tightly to the other person's waist, determined not to sink down.

When the two locked gazes, he couldn't help but show a teasing smile, as he pondered over how much advantage he held in this game. Then, with joy in his heart, he reached out a hand and swept the man's wet, devilish-looking bangs to reveal a set of facial features that were clear and ambiguous under the moonlight. Surprisingly, they were delicate and handsome like a blooming lotus.

How can there be such a handsome man? He extends his finger gently, tracing along his lip line, his strong nose bridge. The man is like a tamed wolf, gazing at him with a cold and stern expression, yet not resistant.

In the long time to come, he scrutinized this person whom he loved and hated to the core countless times with such a look, until only a lifeless gray remained in their eyes, bringing the observation to a halt.

On that fateful night, Gu Chencha's downfall was occurring at a visibly rapid pace.

In this man, it seemed that there were only factors that kept making oneself intoxicated, without any hint of a shadow that would make him want to let go. He endured all the pain of his first sexual encounter silently, like he had found a treasure, cherishing the person he had met with all his luck.

When he impulsively kissed him, the stimulation of their lips ignited this person once again. The man withdrew one hand, propping himself up on the shore, and held onto Gu Chencha's waist, taking him time and time again in the icy river water. Gu Chencha initially attempted to tightly hold onto the man's head and grit his teeth behind him, enduring it. But in the end, he instinctively reached out to push him away, wanting to break free from the relentless torment. He was not whimpering nor moaning; he was truly crying, begging him to stop.

But to this, the man simply turned a blind eye.

Gu Chencha, who was inexperienced in matters of the world, did not find any pleasure in this nearly brutal first night. However, he believed that he had found an indescribable solace in his heart. He did not know that even if he willingly entered the dark side with dirty and selfish intentions, lacking worldly experience meant lacking worldly experience. Simply being naive meant being easily deceived.

He believed that men wanted to conquer wild horses, and he was proud to be the wild horse that this superior man had taken notice of, never realizing that this could also be taken literally.

Therefore, when the man finally calmed down, holding his breath, the mumbled phrase of "Wait for me to get better.." did not result in tenderness and affection, but rather another round of intensified rough treatment after trembling.

Grandpa Ya was completely different from the romantic fantasies in Gu Chen's heart. He hated the person beneath him.

Hate him for breaking my three-year taboo, hate him for tarnishing my persistence and waiting, hate him for igniting my own fire.

When he asked for him for the first time in the car, it was not out of desire but out of punishment. It was originally just to satisfy his own impulsive desire to end quickly. However, when he saw the fresh blood flowing between his legs, which he himself had caused, his eyes turned red in an instant.

A cruel thought emerged in his mind. He actually wanted to kill the person who had suddenly appeared out of nowhere right beneath him. He hoped that this intense scandal would redeem his broken vow tonight and put an end to the trace of pity that had inexplicably developed in his heart.

He has already loved someone before, he can't love someone else anymore. If love begins in chaos and ends in abandonment, what value does it hold?

In reality, people may not necessarily meet the right person at once, especially before experiencing the true flames of love. Even a slight liking can make one savor those insignificant setbacks, defining their emotions at that time according to others' experiences. Coupled with his responsible yet obsessive mind when it comes to love, it is why he stubbornly keeps the wrong person in his heart.

Why did you have to appear? He didn't know what it felt like for the trembling body beneath him to be like a lone leaf in a fierce wind. But his rationality had gradually been replaced by a tremendous pleasure he hadn't felt in three years. The contradiction between rejection and craving was so intense, like a confrontation between ice and fire, that he was completely intoxicated.

The pleasure had a marvelous sense of teasing and playing hard-to-get. He felt the other party's longing, as if they were pleading for him to stay. The immense satisfaction swept over him, causing him to forget his original intention long ago, and helplessly plunging into the whirlpool of desire.

He didn't know whether it was because he felt the space was too small or because Gu Chencha's lingering consciousness wanted to escape, but someone opened the car door, and the two of them tightly intertwined and rolled straight into the ice-cold river water. It was only then that he suddenly woke up.

He reached into the water and pulled out the semi-conscious Gu Chencha, supporting him between his arms.

He hesitated, whether or not to let go and let this "exception" take his disloyal secret with him as it sank into the water. But Gu Chencha gradually woke up. As soon as he opened his eyes, he was like a missile equipped with a tracking program, quickly finding the person's eyes, and then he smiled.

The man did not understand why he was laughing, but when he felt a kiss on his face, he clearly understood the meaning behind that look.

My entire scalp exploded.

That gaze was too familiar, it was none other than the self from three years ago. However...

"Who do you think you are, that you're worthy?"

He sneered and reentered his body. The broken words, "Stop...please..." from Gu Chencha echoed in his mind, almost drowning out any other sound he could hear.

He closed his eyes and suddenly thought of a phrase.

Since you like me so much, then accompany me to go to hell.

After his outburst once again, Gu Chencha finally couldn't bear it any longer and threw his neck backwards, tensing his entire body as he emitted a painful groan. Immediately after, as if suddenly losing all his strength, he collapsed onto Jiang Nu's shoulder and completely fainted.

At that moment, the man finally seemed to remember something, gently pecking the person who had already fainted in his arms - this final and crucial scene, however, had not been preserved in Gu Chencha's memory. Just like many times later on, his self-centered, quietly tender care was all in vain because his mistaken sense of responsibility and loyalty did not find their way into that person's eyes, ultimately resulting in the tragic farewell.